I am not sure how life can be so good, so perfect, and then all of a sudden a light switch goes off and life’s like, “okay time to put you through hell now”. Or at least that’s how I have felt these last couple of months, or rather ever since the start of 2017. Once 2017 hit it was like God has decided to test me in every way possible.
It’s not that I don’t trust him, because I do. But boy, have I been tested.
Although, in the midst of all of the pain and suffering life has thrown my way, it has truly made me appreciate the gift of life. We can either live our lives to the fullest, or dwell and always ask God, “Why me”, which I know, seems like the easier alternative sometimes.
During my meditation this morning, it had me repeat “May I learn to meet my pain with mercy and compassion. May I learn to meet the difficulties in my life, in a kind and compassionate way”. That right there really spoke to me. I think God was pulling a trick up his sleeve with that one, he knew exactly what I needed to hear.
You see, healing comes in waves. And you know, maybe today the waves hit the rocks, and that’s okay. That’s okay darling, you are still healing. There is beauty in pain and coming out stronger on the other side. I think the most beautiful people must go through hell first to see the beauty in this life.
God is working his magic in you in ways that are nearly impossible to see at times. Trust the process my love. I always pray to have eyes that see the best in people, a heart that forgives the worst, a mind that forgets the bad, and a soul that never loses faith in God.
In the words of my loving Grandmother during her last days after being diagnosed with lung cancer, “Shit Happens”. She truly saw the light heartedness in every situation. Her courageous spirit keeps me going, because anyone who can bluntly say “shit happens” while going through absolute hell, is a hero of mine.
In loving memory of my Nana: January 1, 1945 – May 7, 2017
P.S. Meditation app I use is called Meditation Studio. (Not sponsored I have like 3 followers so chill).
Just wanted to share :)